A Slight Dilemma Regarding Favorite Colors

In second grade, favorite colors were a very big deal. They were the start of all icebreakers. The beginning of friendships. The information that could make or break you.

I’m being slightly dramatic, but you get my point.

During my first day of class, my life changing greeting went something along the lines of, “Hi I’m Madelynne and my favorite colors are red, white, and blue!” But, unfortunately, to a room of very judgmental and close-minded seven year olds, having three favorite colors was not allowed…even if you were just trying to be patriotic.

So, of course, I did what any sensible second grader would do, and quickly combined all three colors together to create lavender. And from then on, my greeting became, “Hi I’m Madelynne and my favorite color is lavender!”

And that was that.

Lavender just became something that I associated with being Madelynne. And it wasn’t long until everyone else did too. My birthday cards became lavender, the walls of my room became lavender, and anything my mom picked out for me was lavender.

Everything that I owned had some sort of lavender aspect to it…except for things that I bought for myself. Because even though lavender is a lovely color, it wasn’t really my favorite anymore.

I began to notice other things.

I loved the calmness of blue and the things it reminded me of: the ocean, vast skies, bright eyes, rain drops, and song birds.

I loved the brightness of yellow and the things it made me feel: happiness, excitement, joy, and energy.

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It’s Only New Once

*Originally ran October 5, 2015*

     The worst part about a new situation is the anticipation that comes before it. It’s the awful days, weeks, and months beforehand that we spend worrying and overthinking. It’s all of this extra space in between that gives our brain time to think up every  horror story that could possibly occur, every single mistake that we could make, and every little tiny detail that could go wrong.

     Recently, I had a pretty big change in my life. I packed up all of my bags from Virginia Beach and moved to the big city of Philadelphia to attend Drexel University. Of course, I spent a vast majority of the summer coming up with awful scenarios that could occur, because everything was new and I had no idea what to expect. I was living away from home for the first time, making up my own schedule for the first time, and attending lectures and art classes for the first time. For the entire first week, absolutely everything I did was new. But here’s the funny thing about that; it’s only new once.

     In one of my classes my professor told us these word, “it’s only new once”, and they’ve resonated with me ever since. Sometimes things in our day to day life can seem rather daunting. Easy tasks for some people may seem like Olympic worthy feats for others. It all depends on us as individuals. Sometimes beginning the first day of a new job is scary, or walking into your first class of a new quarter, or even picking up the phone to make an appointment somewhere new. No matter what our situation is, new things can be intimidating. However, we must keep in mind that they are only new once! All it takes is a good fifteen seconds of bravery to muster up the courage to pick up the phone or walk in the door. After that it’s no longer new. Been there done that. You got this.

~Madelynne Catherine